What’s up… on lunch after a rather uneventful evening. Work is going pretty good and I guess that is great since tomorrow is payday! I have been working out with some sparring getting ready for disappointment. I emailed my agent yesterday and with my situation that is currently the only way that we can communicate…. anyhow, I asked about these upcoming fight dates so I would be able to schedule around family work, etc. Well, first I find out that I may have to sell some tickets for the show (not that big of a deal), but then I continue to read that I can sell the tickets and maybe I’ll be able to fight on the card. Huh? Sell 75 tickets and sit as a spectator? So I was a little annoyed to say the least about the prospect of this but nevertheless I just took my frustration out on my grappling dummy last night. I have yet to return to class where I can at least roll and work on my stand up with others with the same goals. I plan to make a trip sometime this weekend but I want to be able to spend some time with my daughter. I miss her and unless I take her with me I will more or less end up waiting yet another week or until monday. All in all, things are alright but there is just a part of me that kind of wants to give up because of so many empty promises. The things that keep me going is how much I have learned and grown as a person and as a competitor over the years and I want that to mean something. Well, I’ve gotta run and get back to work. I’ll post again soon.